Do you ever had that "period" of time on the last day of the day that you'll sit down & recall the year and make your resoulutions while having that deja vu feeling that you've done this before and hey...the resolutions usually last till end of January?? Well I did just that this morning!Woke up pretty early this morning (which is pretty rare unless I have something to do)..I guess it could be the bed..Yes..I am back in Melaka!

This year had been quite a rollecoaster ride for me. In many parts it was pretty much a rough ride both emotionally & spiritually. On the outside things did look good for me, I had settled down in my new apartment which I can say is about 90% furnished the way I planned it.(a bit more deco, maybe painting a featured wall and a washing machine would do the trick!), I am more confident now in my job, I did not much financial worries and so on..I guess in many sense I led a pretty much care freed life & was lucky compared to many others I know..but yet many times I felt not satisfied. In the end of 2005, my 3rd cycle of life was just beginning (First being school days, second being college days and 3rd is getting into the working world) so when it came to2006, I was still feeling my way around, my new job, living out of home and my new LIFE! I didn't have much time then to do much reflecting nor did I made any resolution except to gain a firm grounding in my job & to get promoted within a year (still hoping)..

However, this year, even before December, I had made some plans for next year, mainly my holiday plans, taking up diving & my career path. Yesterday during church service I realised (not a big surprise there la) that I've been quite far from God since I went to KL. It's true you know, the city life can really make you or break you; physically,financiall, emotionally or spiritually. I have realisaed throughout the year of this fact but gave the excuse that I couldn't find a church to fit in. I guess I was also holding to the days as an activie member in my hometown church but I have to let it go, move on and start afresh in a local church. I lost count of the number of times that I have recommited myself to God and yet I always fall short of my expectation and maybe His too. But I know that he is still there for me whenever I call out and in times where I doubt myself on this matter, He always send someone to remind me that He loves me and that He is always beside me, ready to hold my hand.

I know this time my blog is a little more spiritual & usual but that is my main resolution for next year..that I want to get back on the road that I have strayed away from..I know from experience now that I shouldn't be over ambitious ( I have thousands of ideas running in my head) but to take this slowly at a time. So I would appreciate if you could pray for me to make sure that I would be able to keep this resolution (it will be first for me) Haha